jazzielovesyou blogging at elowel.org
1. Appreciate all that your body can do. Every day your body carries you closer to your dreams. Celebrate all of the amazing things your body does for you --running, dancing, breathing, laughing, dreaming, etc.
2. Keep a top-10 list of things you like about yourself -- things that aren’t related to how much you weigh or what you look like. Read your list often. Add to it as you become aware of more things to like about you.
3. Remind yourself that “true beauty” is not simply skin-deep. When you feel good about yourself and who you are, you carry yourself with a sense of confidence, self-acceptance, and openness that makes you beautiful regardless of whether you physically look like a supermodel. Beauty is a state of mind, not a state of your body.
4. Look at yourself as a whole person. When you see yourself in a mirror or in your mind, choose not to focus on specific body parts. See yourself as you want others to see
you -- as a whole person.
5. Surround yourself with positive people. It is easier to feel good about yourself and your body when you are around others who are supportive and who recognize the importance of liking yourself just as you naturally are.
6. Shut down those voices in your head that tell you your body is not “right” or that you are a “bad” person. You can overpower those negative thoughts with positive ones. The next time you start to tear yourself down, build yourself back up with a few quick affirmations that work for you.
7. Wear clothes that are comfortable and that make you feel good about your body. Work with your body, not against it.
8. Become a critical viewer of social and media messages. Pay attention to images, slogans, or attitudes that make you feel bad about yourself or your body. Protest these messages: write a letter to the advertiser or talk back to the image or message.
9. Do something nice for yourself -- something that lets your body know you appreciate it. Take a bubble bath, make time for a nap, find a peaceful place outside to relax.
10. Use the time and energy that you might have spent worrying about food, calories, and your weight to do something to help others. Sometimes reaching out to other people can help you feel better about yourself and can make a positive change in our world.
I am going to go through another wonderful month where I am going to hate everything and everyone and scream at people for talking to me. It will be most excellent I am sure. I guess the good news is I am not going to make the same mistake as my mother and get myself stuck with a baby! Happy New Year! That is as far as my happy really goes. Yay! Now can I just die and possibly start over?
Tear 01-04-06 12:00
There aren't any "good guys" out there, are there? They are just some myth. Or there is something very appealing about me to everyone that really should be in either rehab or in very intensive therapy. Something must be wrong with me...
In the car passing people or walking on the street, when a car passes me, I wish I could switch places with them. Ever just wish something like that? I wonder how much better things would be if I could just switch and not have to put up with MY life anymore. Start over with a whole new life. Is that so wrong?
Kisses in the backseat 12-20-05 07:02
My boyfriend FINALLY is home!
I missed him so much and so it didn't matter that I had to go get him in Seattle at 11pm-ish and not get home till an hour before I had to get up for school. (Thank God that there was ice to cancel school!) It was WONDERFUL to get to see him again. I didn't even realize how much I missed him till now. Oh well but it was wonderful. And I think that this time apart was good
Run 12-16-05 13:51
I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all i've done.

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Anywhere from here

Light up, Light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
It makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbyes
I nearly do.

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Slower, slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess.

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear.
Such Great Heights 12-13-05 10:04
I am thinking it's a sign that the freckles
In our eyes are mirror images and when
We kiss they're perfectly aligned
And I have to speculate that God himself
Did make us into corresponding shapes like
Puzzle pieces from the clay
And true, it may seem like a stretch, but
Its thoughts like this that catch my troubled
Head when you're away when I am missing you to death
When you are out there on the road for
Several weeks of shows and when you scan
The radio, I hope this song will guide you home

They will see us waving from such great
Heights, 'come down now,' they'll say
But everything looks perfect from far away,
'come down now,' but we'll stay...

I tried my best to leave this all on your
Machine but the persistent beat it sounded
Thin upon listening
That frankly will not fly. you will hear
The shrillest highs and lowest lows with
The windows down when this is guiding you home
I love him... 12-09-05 10:19
So it makes me feel so horrible and useless when he is hurting about how he doesn't get what he needs from his family, and I can't do anything about it but say I love you and I'm sorry. I know that's not what he is looking for but what else can I do? Call up his dad and say 'Hey! Tell your kids you are proud of them and that you love them for once in your goddamn life! You're fucking them up without it!'?
As tempting as that is even I couldn't tell a parent that they aren't good enough for their own kids. All I can do is worry about him because of how the stress is making him sick. I want to be able to hold him and tell him that people are proud and love him and that his mother especially would be proud but that's not possible when your boyfriend is across the country going to school. Like I said I feel useless and don't know what to do for him. I want him to comeback home and for everything to be better.

So sorry about all the crappy depressing stuff but I really have to get out there to someone.
Bruises 12-07-05 10:54
So I love how I just had to spend three days with a guy that molested me and still likes to grab at me and bruise my wrist from grabbing on them.

I love how effed up my life is!
So I am a Scrooge. 11-28-05 13:00
I hate holidays.

Nothing good really ever comes from them.

It's just another reason for everyone to yell and drink more then they usually do.

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