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04/16/2006

Uncertainties about your living arrangements may be unnerving. You will be able to close any deals successfully. Difficulties with females you live with could cause emotional stress.

This was my horoscope for Easter Sunday... I just wish that I had read it before all the crap happened.

My mom and I got into a fight, I am getting so sick of just the way that she is. We used to be okay. I mean we got along for the most part and we talked, then she leaves to go and see my bio father in Utah. All of a sudden I remind her too much of him and I get cut off because she realizes she HATES him.

I decided this was just happening for now and the fact that she was randomly calling my best friend and taking her out and talking to her was okay. I mean I thought it would all be done and over soon enough.

Nope.

Well it kept going and going and anytime she did talk to me about some lame thing like I don't even know, some everyday topic, I realize I can't stand to talk to her or anything.

I felt bad.

Who wouldn't?

I think it was just my reaction to being dismissed so easily.

Anyway the arguement.

I finally tell her I can't stand the way she has to overreact to everything and how snotty she can be.

Well I can tell you that parents do not like to have their faults pointed out to them.

(My step dad later asks how do I think she felt being told she is a snob all the time? The answer I gave is I know how it feels because I am constantly being told by her and yes it's crappy.)

Well then I tell her I don't want to talk to her, she tells me I am going to talk to her because she is my mother. Hmm well I say what I have to but then decide what is the point? She isn't going to see things my way. She doesn't want to. So I stop talking and all of a sudden apparently I am telling her she is a crappy parent/person, blah blah blah, then all of a sudden I am being told I am moving in with my bio father in Utah.

Whatever.

Last night she told me she hates me.

She doesn't want to talk to me or see me.

I am the mistake.

I can't do anything.

I am the fucking lying bitch.

I stayed up crying last night trying to will myself to sleep.

That doesn't work in cases like this.

I guess this is just what is supposed to be.

Everything happens for a reason?

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